too many hormones + stress = TOO MUCH
we haven't replaced our wireless router yet because we don't have the extra money so I am still without internet unless I come to the office desk.... not too comfortable
I'm officially HUGE... my belly aches and it's tender to the touch. I feel GIGANTIC!
I just found out that our health coverage ends August 31st. I'm due September 23rd so early September is still VERY POSSIBLE! Haven't really digested this one yet.... WOW!
Ozzie is on a nap strike........ NOOOOOOO!
had my first trip to Labor and Delivery LATE Sunday night... baby A has been slowly moving less and less and by Sunday evening I noticed that I hadn't felt him/her move in quite a while. I knew it was either position or that something was wrong. Baby A is the one who is smaller and possibly receiving less nutrients, blood, fluid, ect. So naturally I was even more worried. My WONDERFUL friend Shelly came over and kept me company while I laid on the couch and counted movements... it was far less than the norm so we headed over to L&D to have their heart rates checked. They are both PERFECT and baby B was quite active all night... but baby A was still very still. We're thinking that it's positional and baby A is moving but I can't feel it. I have my OB appointment Thursday and my specialist appointment next Tuesday.
While I was at L&D I talked with the nurse about delivering in an OR. I am VERY nervous about this. She assured me it's NOT stainless steel bed and that there ARE sheets on the bed. However it's a large room... 4x's the size of a L&D room. There are bright fluorescent lights overhead so it's not calm and cozy like the other rooms. There are approximately 10 people in the OR while I deliver which is a HUGE obstacle for me. I am very modest and if I am distracted and worrying about those people I will not deliver well. Oh and there is no overhead mirror which is huge for me because that is how I focus. If I don't have that and there are too many people I will be a wreck! AHHHH!
We went to babies R us to pick up the car seats AND they don't carry them in the store anymore... ONLY online. uggggg! I found them online with free shipping so I ordered them already. It was just a huge pain in the butt to go all the way there with the whole family and not come home with the car seats.
We are NOT ready for the babies yet, besides not having the car seats yet, we don't have a crib (Ozzie is still in his). I haven't gotten the baby clothes out. We have our cloth diapers but don't have disposables yet... which we'll need for the first few weeks. Oh My!
I want to be mama again... play with the kids, chase them, grab them and pick them up, be able to hug them close, not say "watch my belly" every time they climb up next to me. I want to TAKE PICTURES AGAIN!!!! I am feeling so down about not taking pictures... it truly is part of me and I ache to not be able to follow the kids around and get down on the floor and take pictures of them. Couch pictures just SUCK at this point.
I feel silly to complain because we are SO SO BLESSED, God is so Good and I know everything is in his hands. It's just ONE of those days!
I am going to a movie with the girls tonight... probably the last time I get out before the babies are here. I'm sure they'll perk me up! :)
Okay enough whining from me... i'm off to get myself half way decent in my tilly tank and stretch pants (the ONLY thing that fits)
MAYBE just MAYBE we'll take a picture tonight! Ha!