What's up!

It’s been almost 2 weeks since ‘the day’ yet it feels like months ago already. Each day is SO LONG, I am in pain 24 hours a day and it drags each hour out like it’s 12. I guess I should look at the positive side and enough the extra long minutes I get to snuggle with my 2 little beauties. The girls {gasp}, I am still in shock I am saying that, are doing absolutely amazingly wonderful! They are perfect in everyway, as if I thought they wouldn’t be. Ha! They are sleeping MUCH better than me. I’ve been able to get them on the same schedule and tandem feed them. I was worried it was going to be a struggle but the only struggle I’ve had is pain with holding them while feeding and such. Since the day we got home they’ve been sleeping 5-6 hours at a time. What amazing little girls they are indeed. I on the other hand… well… let’s say I am so sleep deficient at this point I have no idea how I’m still moving. I am waking up 10-15 times a night, uncomfortable and in pain. I can not lie down so I’m propped up with pillows and blankets. I am not a back sleeper and the pang I have to lay on my side and cuddle close with my hubby is beyond comprehension… how long can I do this?! I tried to lie down on my side last week and I am pretty sure I re-broke my sternum. I am going to see my chiropractor again tomorrow… bitter sweet… she really can’t do a whole lot since I can’t lie on the table. She did reset my ribs, collar bone & sternum last week so we’ll see if I need to reset them again. I hope I haven’t screwed them up. She was able to adjust my neck and work a little on my back but not my hips or pelvis which I know is way out of whack. She also reset my knee which was messed up in the accident and my thumb which I sprained in the accident too. Most of my bruising has faded away but my chest and ribs still feel about the same. I’ve heard it’s a long slow road to recovery. GREAT!

I know I’m whining and I’m really not much of a fun blogger right now but I have to add… does anyone know how much it sucks to not be able to… are you ready for the list….

Laugh

Cry

Cough

Sneeze

Hiccup

Burp

Sniff

Yawn

deep breath

or yell

I feel like I’m going to explode from holding it all in… I want to laugh, to cry, to take a deep breath. I don’t feel like myself… I have to hold everything in and the only way I can do that is shut down mentally to everything that has happened.

This too shall pass… and life will be better than ever!

Please keep hassling me about pictures… It’s hard for me to take pictures but I will regret it BIG TIME if I don’t. I know I don’t want to miss this short time I have to capture their newborn-ness. I keep saying ‘tomorrow’ but it has yet to happen. Really… maybe tomorrow! {grin}

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  1. Just so you know...I am checking your blog every day to see those little cuties!We all LOVE looking at your photos. And I am praying for you...

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  2. Brittany-I will be frank with you. You were in an accident and you are in pain. I wish I could take it ALL AWAY and allow you to be pain free. DO NOT worry about pictures, posts, or any technology. You have SIX KIDDOS who are yours-enjoy them. Praying that you get better soon and the pain is taken from your body!!!
    ~Elyse~

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  3. Whine it up! (get it...like "wind it up" the song..anyway). You are in more pain than most of us will ever experience...feel free. And about those pics...there are those of us who are depending upon them; like me, for example, remember I am living through your experiences right now! I NEED THEM..and you know you want to! But take care of yourself...better yet, be taken care of and soak up the spirit of the Lord and allow Him to heal and be your strength. Hang in there He will carry you through.

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  4. How I hope you feel better soon. Now get to picture taking. J/K! Do what you can.
    ML

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  5. Oh girl, I have been thinking of you. I can't imagine the pain! I wish I could come over and feed those boys, bake up a storm, read books to the kids, do laundry, you know just HELP!

    I can't do any of that but I can pray. And I will.

    But man, I sure wish I could practically do something...

    I sure hope the chiro can do something for you tomorrow...

    -Andrea

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  6. Hey! If we need to remind you to take pictures for yourself, will do. But do not worry about us biting our fingernails to see more pics. Take care of yourself and your boys and girls.
    I wish I could help about the pain. Maybe some refocusing and relaxation techniques (which obviously should not include heavy breathing) might help.

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  7. I am amazed that you are still able to tandem feed with all the pain you are in! I always have to work at keeping a newborn latched on when I'm just concentrating on one.

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  8. Praying for you, Brittany. That has got to be so hard.

    Don't worry about pictures, or even updating here. I do want to know how the boys are doing with their new sisters, however. :-)

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  9. aww Brittany, I am praying for you! Ashley just asked me about you today, and I told her I would tell you she was praying for you, too! God is good, and he won't let you down. You're right- this too shall pass! Keep your head high! :)

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  10. It must be difficult and odd to have such a pleasurable time contrasted with so much pain at the same time. :( So sorry for you and just hoping for some relief quickly - maybe from the Chiro?

    Anyhow, take the pictures, if not for your readers, for your own joy and so you can look back and recall how tiny they were.

    You are in my thoughts.

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  12. Yes we want pictures but we also want you to feel better. Take it easy girl. Prayers upon prayers for your healing...

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  13. You are not whining at all. I'm sure there is A LOT more you could be complaining about but held back. I can't imagine. I know you are probably feeling jipped out of a very precious time right now and that SUCKS. Seriously. I just can't imagine. It seems to me that you are handling it the best you can, which is far better than I would be able to.

    Know that you are in my daily prayers!!!!

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  14. OH! I am so sorry you are in so much pain!
    PLEASE PLEASE do take pictures, esp. since you aren't able to appreciate all of these moments so fully. You would be so sad if you look back and don't atleast have photos to document the time.
    It's such a precious time and it goes so fast :(

    PS Well done tandem feeding while in so much pain!!! You ARE A ROCK STAR!

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  15. i'm just so sorry for you... my heart hurts when i read this because it just seems like you've been thru enough... i hope the good days are just around the corner...

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  16. I am so sorry to hear about all that you are having to go through, you are in prayers.

    I would like to see more pics also. I can at least look at your beautiful girls since I don't know what little girl cuteness looks like in my house :)

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  17. I'M SORRY ABOUT YOUR TIME RIGHT NOW, REALLY. YOU'RE RIGHT, IT WILL PASS. AND DON'T YOU FEEL BAD FOR A MINUTE ABOUT COMPLAINING...THE PSALMS ARE FILLED WITH GOD'S CHILDREN CRYING OUT TO HIM IN COMPLAINT....ALL THE WHILE HOPING IN HIM.

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  18. Prayers and reminders that God is good and that He will not give you more than you can bear.

    Hassles and more hassle to take oodles of pictures of your beautiful crew.

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  19. oh you poor thing! I am so sorry. What a TERRIBLE time to be in so much pain. I have thought about you so much this past week b.c I myself have been in quite a bit of pain (but I can still laugh, cry, sneeze, lay down, move, etc...so nothing NEAR to you) and It has really affected my sleep, movement, etc. and I just keep thinking "poor Brittany is feeling his ALL over her body!"

    I am praying!

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  20. Brittany, First off, I am so sorry you are still in so much pain...I really hoped your next post would say you were feeling better and on the road to recovery. Soon I hope! I'll be praying for a miraculous recovery. As for the pics...take them...today. My newborn is now 9 mos old and all I did was blink an eye. Even if you don't have time to post them or even get them off your camera...just take them. Praying for you in Clarkston, WA

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  21. So sorry you are still in so much pain! I can't wait to see more pictures of all the kids. How are the boys with the girls? Also I'm hoping you're still planning on posting a video of the girls dancing around in your belly. I loved watching my belly move with just one in there...I can only imagine how wild it got with two!

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  22. It will pass but I'm really hoping this is not tainting your memory of these first few weeks with your daughters....(what about some pain killers...there are some you can take while breastfeeding??)

    I ordered a twin feeding pillow today, I am dying to know all your tricks in absolute detail!!!! so keep posting, no information is too insignificant from where I sit...You are doing great!!!! :):)

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  23. Hi, again! I'm from Türkiye.. And sorry for my bad English... I can understand what u're writing but I cannot write what I'm thinking... I'm so sorry for you... I hope you would recover soon..and have good time for your kids... Also I'm married for a month.. And I really like your blog and the babies...
    Thanks...

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  24. I hope you heal very quickly! I have been praying for you since I heard about your accident. I sure hope the chiro can help you some too.

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  25. You poor thing. I am so sorry you are dealing with all this. I hope you do recover quickly. I cannot imagine not being able to do all those things without being in so much pain. Enjoy those little ones and take lots of pics. Hopefully things will start getting better and easier soon. (hugs)

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  26. Brittany- Hang in there! You're doin great! Really! It's ok to vent to us all, don't worry.since you can't do all those things you listed, just stay quiet and still. It's ok. Maybe The Lord wants you to do just that. You'll be up and running in no time. promise. Know that we're thinking of you daily. k?
    Danielle

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  27. Hi Brittany! I know that I am a stranger but really, I am willing to do anything to help. A meal (I'll even pick up already prepared meals if that makes you feel better), grocery shopping...really. Email me if you would like Davisk@fcmcclerk.com (I work for the municipal court)

    I had C-sections and I know that doesn't truly compare but I know what it's like to try and care for you and a babies, and you have two!

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  28. I will be praying for your recovery:) Oh, and PLAESE take some pictures!!

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  29. I suffered from severe back pain after delivering my second daughter only to find out a month later that my gall bladder was the culprit and needed to be removed. The 2 nights I had to spend in the hospital without my infant where terrible and the month after spent recovering and unable to hold the little one was also difficult, but it got better! Hang in there!

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  30. Oh Brittany, I am rpaying for you all day. I lve the pictures so far and keep checking for more. And I can partly relate to the pain. I had a spinal fusion 3 years ago and it was awful. I couldn't do anything on your list for a long time much less walk. It was a long road to recvery but worth every minute because now my back pain is gone and I am a pro at carrying my 22 lb 13 month old. Just enjoy your sweet time with your girls!

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  31. When my husband had broken ribs he slept in a recliner for about 6 weeks to avoid the pain of getting in/out of bed and up/down off of the sofa. It helped him a lot. Maybe you have one or could borrow one?
    Just a thought -
    Stacey

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  32. So where are the pictures ? Just kidding since you said to hassle you.
    Sorry to hear you're (still) in so much pain. I know it's messed up . I know you pictured things being totally different. I'm still praying for you to feel better soon. Hugs.
    P.S. I saw that you finally got around to tweeting on Twitter again. :)

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  33. You aren't whining - just telling it like it is. It can't be sunshine and roses all the time and it's perfectly alright to talk about it when it's not.

    Still praying for a good recovery for you, sorry it's taking a while.

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  34. Hon, you were in a serious accident. Please be easy on yourself. It's OK to whine right now in the midst of the joy with your new babies. I can only imagine how you feel trying to hold all your feelings in because it hurts too much. Know you are in my prayers and I pray a speedy recovery. You are a blessing to many! Hang in there!

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  35. praying that your pain passes/heals quickly. and don't worry that you are whining... just venting, right? it keeps a girl sane. I too, am amazed at your tandem feeding. what gorgeous little ones you have!

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  36. Rebecca Bortman9/2/08, 2:41 PM

    Would love to hear how big they were and how long>

    Praying that relief starts showing her face. Enjoy them as much as you can.

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  37. Rebecca Bortman9/2/08, 2:41 PM

    Would love to hear how big they were and how long>

    Praying that relief starts showing her face. Enjoy them as much as you can.

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  38. Yeah, I know. I broke my sternum in a caraccident a few years ago and I wont tell you how long I felt that unbelievable pain. A friend of mine broke hers in an accident last December and I kept reminding her how long it took me to heal to the point where I could cough without catching my breath because of the horrible pain and well, I thought my friend just might kill me. Praying for you sweet heart. Those sternums are so hard and slow healing. To be perfectly honest you'll probably always have some pain, I still do when I cough, but it's nothing more now than a nagging soreness.

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  39. You are doing much better than I would ever be doing. Hang in there. Before you know it, you'll be back on your feet (without pain) and toting your girls around wonderfully.

    I'd take a day back from when the girls were just born....in a second. Even though I was the most post-partum sobfest there was.

    Tiff

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  40. It's great to "hear" from you again Brittany. Julia asks, "You dat?" When she sees the girls on my screen saver. It's the perfect reminder to stop and say a prayer for your family ever time I turn on my computer.

    I wish I could come there and take some pictures for you!

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  41. Our family has been thinking about you and hoping that the days get easier.

    Romans 15:13
    May the God of hope fill you with ALL joy and PEACE as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.

    Jeremiah 33:6
    Nevertheless, I will bring health and healing to it; I WILL heal my people and will let them enjoy abundant peace and security.

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  42. I am so sad for all the pain you are in. Please know my prayers are with you.

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  43. Brittany - your health and your family come first!!!! I am still praying for you and your little ones. And while we are all excited to see new pics, your family needs you first and foremost - not the "blog family!" We can wait! I think you need to take pictures, so do what you can in order to have them for later, but don't put yourself in pain just to update the blog! We'll understand! (I do miss your updates though, but want you to get healthy and enjoy your family before anything else!) God bless you & your family!

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  44. Your girls are so sweet and you looked great in your last belly shot, I hope you start to get some pain relief and much needed sleep.

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  45. I've injured ligaments at my sternum and popped a rib out of place at my sternum, so I know a very tiny sliver of what you describe. It's awful, I know.

    You are so strong. Don't ever doubt that. You have birthed 6 babies, woman! You take it one day, one hour at a time. Try with every fiber of your being to take in each moment of this time, because you don't want to look back and regret that you don't remember what the girls were like when they were this little. I know it's so very hard, but you CAN do it. I know you can! You are beautifully and wonderfully made, and God knew you could handle this.

    xoxo
    `A

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Brittany