tears of joy in the river of pain

My eyes have been dripping with tears since Tuesday morning… tears of fear, pain & joy. The overwhelming love that swells my heart is beyond words… our baby girls are here and they are so amazing. I look at them in complete awe about….uh… 500 times a day. I am desperately trying to keep my focus on how blessed we are but I have to say it’s been HARD! The pain that is flowing through my body is unbelievable… comparable to nothing I’ve felt in my whole life.

I can’t tell the story here right now… but I can tell you my physical pain is from a dislocated fractured sternum, dislocated & bruised ribs, possibly dislocated & bruised clavicle, abdominal tissue & organ swelling & I haven’t even been to my chiropractor yet. I can not even imagine how screwed up my back & neck are… they ache so bad. I see a specialist tomorrow to do in depth x-rays to asses the full damage. I only had one x-ray and one cat scan at the hospital… I was unable to do further cat scans on my organs and pelvis because they would have insisted that I pump and dump for 48 hours and that was not an option for me. We are decently sure that I don’t have organ damage besides swelling. They did blood work and if I did have severe damage I would have been able to tell. [I hope]

I can not even describe the emotional and physical pain. I am unable to even pick my precious daughters up. I have to have help to get off the couch or sit up in bed. I can’t lay down on either side or flat on my back. Paul has to help dress me. Picking up a glass of water, my camera, my plate of food is so painful. I can’t laugh, cough, sneeze, sniff, yawn, cry, talk loud or take a deep breath without excruciating pain. I feel like I have been robbed of so much. I’ve waited so long to be able pick my boys up again and give them a huge hug… and now I still can’t. It hurts my heart so much. I’ve been excited for months about the thought of being able to babywear these twins… that has flown out the window along with so many other hopes and dreams for these first few months.

The river of pain is deep, wide & bitterly cold… I know God will walk beside me and keep me afloat it’s just so hard at times.

I’m off to cuddle the best I can with my miracle baby girls!

I haven’t been able to take many pictures… I really can’t even hold my camera. But Paul has been taking pictures and I’ll be putting some up very shortly.

106 comments:

  1. **BIG HUGS** I am praying for you girl! You are so stong, but I can only imagine the pain you are in! Hang in there and give those precious baby girls sweet kisses from all your bloggy friends :)

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  2. I've been reading your blog for a little while, but this is my first time posting. Your girls (and boys) are so beautiful. Congratulations on your precious twin girls. I'm so sorry for you accident, although the pain is deep right now, I am praying for quick healing for you.

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  3. Exhale the pain and breathe in all the glory you have been blessed with. God will heal you and you'll be back to 100% soon. Keep the faith.

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  5. This is my first post as well. I am pregnant with our 2nd set of twins which will bring us to 5 little ones. I am so sorry for your pain and all you went through. Praise the Lord that you and the girls made it through. Hope you are feeling better soon girl!

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  6. How HARD for you, to be robbed the opportunity to really enjoy and cherish the first days/weeks of your new little girls lives. I am SO sorry you're in so much pain that you can't even hold your babies or hug your little boys. The pain of THAT must closely compare to the actual physical pain you're in. I had NO idea the accident was that traumatic, and considering how YOU feel, it IS a miracle your babies are safe. Thank GOD for his protection and I will pray for a quick recovery for YOU!

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  7. such sadness...
    Here is a bit of encouragment:

    Psalm 91
    He who dwells in the shelter of the most high,will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.
    This I will declare of the Lord:
    He alone is my refuge,my place of safety,He is my God in whom I trust.

    I think right now Brittany, He is calling you to REST..in Him. For there is no better place..
    Praying for your quick healing!

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  8. Brittany~ I am so sorry that this precious time has been overshadowed by such pain. But please know that all of your readers will be lift you (& your entire family) up in prayer.
    Stacy

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  9. Oh sweetie!! I am SO, SO very sorry that you are having to go through this. Please know that we are praying that God will ease your pain and heal your body.

    I know those sweet baby faces are there to cheer you...

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  10. I am so glad you're home! You've been missed by everyone!! REST up!!

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  11. I continue to pray for you and your family. Congrats on the baby girls.

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  12. Hang in there ... I'm sure that some day this horrible pain will be just a distant memory that will be replaced by the faces of your gorgeous little girls. Rest up and feel better!

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  13. You know we are praying like mad. For healing physically and emotionally! May God be glorified through all of this!

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  14. Praying for you!

    Congrats on your newest blessings :)

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  15. I'm so, so sorry to hear how much pain you are suffering with. I know you know, but God has brought you this far and your amazing journey with your beautiful family has only just begun. Praying for the healing process to begin, mentally and physically. All of your boys and the girls know how much you love them, even if you can't pick them up and swing them around to show it. You've given them everything you've had for their whole lives...they know. This will be a learning experience for them. Praying for you!!!! God bless,
    Kelly

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  16. Oh, I am sad for you but hoping that God will continue to strengthen you and give you patience!!

    Meanwhile, love and smooch those pretty baby girls. :) And their handsome brothers!

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  17. Oh Brittany! I'm so very sorry you're suffering. I wish things had gone differently. Thanks be to God that your babies are here and doing well, but I understand how disappointing it must be to be unable to care for them (and the boys) the way you've dreamed of.

    I'm praying for you!! I hope every day will become a bit easier and you'll be able to hold your daughters soon.

    ~Keri

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  18. I'm so sorry for your physical and emotional pain. I'm praying for you. Kathy

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  19. My heart aches for you right now! I cannot imagine! I am so sorry for the physical pain and for the things you can't do that you long for. I am praying for you. Praying for healing and comfort. Praying that you can enjoy every moment with those sweet girls of yours, and get the rest your body needs!

    Love and hugs
    Elizabeth

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  20. Praying for you all. I hope you continue to have all the support you need.So you can have a speedy recovery!

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  21. I wish I could take your pain away so you could enjoy your 2 miracle blessings.

    Thank the lord your 2 girls are okay and I pray for a speedy recovery for you.

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  22. I don't even know the right words to say except I'm so sorry that this has not turned out to be the joyful time you had so hoped for. I'm so thankful that you and the girls are alive!! I wish I could include the word "well" with that sentence. I'll be praying for a speedy recovery.

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  23. Oh my goodness, I am crying with you. I am so sorry for the pain you are in! I am praying for miracles to rain down upon you.

    Steph

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  24. oh brittany ... :( i can't even imagine. i am thinking about you lots and praying for you. hopefully each day gets a little easier so you can REALLY enjoy your 2 little miracles.

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  25. Praying for miraculously fast healing!!!

    ~Leah in Alaska~

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  26. OH! I am so sorry! I just saw your blog mentioned on someone elses and had to come over.
    I will pray for you for quick healing!
    How awful to be in so much pain when you should be enjoying these moments.

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  27. Brittany...oh I'm so sorry for your intense pain...I had no idea the accident was so bad. I was trying to think why this happened...and maybe God gave you the pain so your daughters didn't have to suffer. Maybe He made your body bear the brunt of the accident so they didn't have to. I don't know...just trying to make sense of it. I pray that now He will give you a miraculous recovery so that you can truly enjoy your babies. I know you will still be able to wear them and lift your boys again soon! I'm definitely praying for this!

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  28. Delurking to say I am so sorry for your accident. I do hope you feel better soon. I know how hard this must be right now, but your twins are gorgeous little girls and all of your kids are super lucky to have you as their momma!

    Take Care~
    Zak

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  29. I am praying for your quick recovery so that you can hug and pick up your bundles of joy (both boys and girls) as soon as possible. I hope both the physical and the emotional pain will be bittersweet memories pretty soon.

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  30. Oh babe. I can't even express the hurt I am feeling for you. My heart and soul ache for you to be able to rewind time. But you can't. I know you are grieving what "should have been". I know. All too well. It's ok to get that out. Let it allll out.

    And after you've had your time working through that, you'll know in your heart that this really was the BEST route for your life to take. Even though it's so immensely hard. God's sovereignty did not stop on Tuesday, He is there still. Right beside you.

    There will come a time when you are pain free, holding all 6 of your cherubs at once, and in awe at the multitude of blessings you have. For now, just take it one step, one breath at a time. I wish I was closer and could help in some way. Don't hesitate to ask...

    Hugs, love and prayers,
    `Arianne

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  31. OMW, I can imagine how hard it is for you. My heart is breaking for you. Hope you're able to hug your babies very soon.

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  32. I am so sorry that you are in such misery. It's not fair and I wish I was there to hug you and help take care of your little one's. Please know that I will continue to pray for you and your family. May your healing be speedy and this be all but a distant memory. Thanks for sharing and allowing us to hold you up to our Heavenly father.

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  33. I have been away...and now I am back, I'm so sorry these first few days have not been a breeze. It was never going to be 'easy' having twins but all this has been unexpected...extra, unnecessary pain.
    I'm hoping you heal quickly and can get back to loving all six of your wonderful children :):)

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  34. I will continue to pray for you and your sweet family.

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  35. Brittany, I am praying diligently for your healing and peace throughout this situation. God is good. And He is walking beside you and will comfort you.

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  36. Wow! I was in a head on collision a few weeks ago and I was not hurt as bad as you. I am so sorry you are in this much pain. I know I was too for a while. I hope there is something you can take to ease the pain. Please seek a lawyer if you have not done so already. You deserve comp for all the pain and suffering you have experienced. I pray that you will recover quickly. Hang in there and get better.

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  37. Praying for you Brittany... I cant imagine how hard this is. This to shall pass!

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  38. My heart hurts so deeply for you , Brittany. I can't even imagine how deep the disappointment and pain run. I am so sorry. So very sorry. I wish I could take some of the pain for you...

    -Andrea

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  39. I am so sorry and I pray God will bring quick healing to your body and give you peace during all this.

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  40. I'm sorry to hear that you are in so much pain!!! I will be praying for you and your sweet family!

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  41. this hurts my heart for you, because I prayed sooo hard you would not have to deal with the incubators of the nicu, so you could hold your sweet babies and enjoy every minute without ng or og tubes, no ventilators, no wires... And yet they are still teathered by another problem, poor mommy is a mess. Praying still....

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  42. Oh, I didn't know it was so bad. I will be praying for you, for healing and peace.

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  43. I am so sorry. I really can't imagine how difficult this is on you. The only thing I can think to say is that this too shall pass. Hopefully much sooner than later.
    I'm praying for you!!!

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  44. Oh Brittany I am so sorry to know that your are in so much physical pain. I am praying that any swelling goes down and whatever remedy God has for your dislocations and discomfort with take effect soon !
    Big hugs.

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  45. P.S. What were the girls' weights and lengths ?
    ~K.

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  46. All I can say is that I am praying for you. I wish that you weren't in so much pain and could hold all of your children. Praying protection over your organs. Keep us updated when you can.

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  47. I'm so sorry to hear that you are going through so much pain. I hope that you can feel better very soon.

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  48. Oh Britt, it just doesn't seem fair. Although I know you are relieved to have two healthy little girls, the feelings of "why" must be pulsing through you. God has a plan for you. Keep going. Keep loving. And know that we are here, praying, hoping, hurting, celebrating with you.

    (They are absolutely BEAUTIFUL.)

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  49. hey mama

    What the birth experience will be like is one of those things we think about and dream about and somewhat obsess about every day of our pregnancy.
    Being in a car accident and unable to physically do all the things you've been waiting for is not on that list!
    But thankfully your girls are here and healthy!

    just thinking about ya'll.

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  50. We are praying for you.. I feel so awful that this has happened to you. I pray for you recovery, COMPLETELY back to your normal self!

    You poor thing. Hugs*

    Get feeling better and stronger.

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  51. Sorry to hear about the pain! Hope that is goes away soon :-)!!!! Praying for quick recovery!!!!

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  52. To have more added to the post pains of childbirth, waking during the night to feed x's 2(I don't know how you were even able to push two out in the condition you're in, amazing!) it all has got to be...just insanely draining, emotionally & physically.

    I'll be praying for you and have been! You're doing great despite the circumstances. You're all your baby girls need right now. To be fed and to know that they're loved by all of you.
    You'll be able to carry them and hug your boys sooner than you think with all of this as a distant memory. : )

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  53. I can't imagine what that must be like. It is hard enough without any added complications and stress. I hope you heal quickly!

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  54. I'd love to give you a big hug right now, but I know it would probably hurt too much :)...so I'll just let you know you are in my thoughts and prayers DAILY! You are so blessed with these beautiful babies and while the road seems hard and endless right now, we serve a merciful God who will restore you completely and bring back your JOY!! Hang in there girlie.

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  55. Diana Hadden8/25/08, 11:42 AM

    Brittany - I am so sorry that things have not turned out exactly as planned but I know from much experience that God will get you through things you never imagined possible! Just like my son said to me one day "don't lose faith in God". He is your keeper and He is holding your babies & boys in your "abscence". Prayers. Diana

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  56. Brittany, I am sorry you have to go thru such a tuff time and such an amazing time. Prayers to you and your family.

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  57. What a bittersweet time for you. God's got you all in His hands. I'm praying for your healing.

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  58. Brittany,
    I know exactly how you feel, or at least probably the closest that anyone might come. We were hit on our way home from the hospital with our 2nd baby, Hayden. We were t-boned directly into my door, and I had had a c-section and the selt belt went through my incision. We were so excited to be taking our baby home, only to be taken directly back to the hospital. It was the scariest moment of my life, but we praise God that Hayden, only 2 days old was ok in the back seat. It was so hard though, the pain in my back was so immense, and I felt like I was supposed to be able to enjoy my new baby, but instead I was going to the doctor, chiropractor, physical therapy... it was so hard. It is such a unique situation, that is how so many doctors told me, because of the relaxin in your system because of the the pregnancy, every bone and muscle is "stretched" so to speak, but then in a moment it all locked up, into the incorrect postions. You are in my prayers. I got through it, it was very hard, but I did, and I know you will too.

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  59. I am so very happy & so very sad for you right now. Please know you & your family are in my prayers. I pray for recovery & joy.
    You do not know me but I would like to pass on a little advice as I have suffered & heal from a horribly accident in the past. Talk about your feelings as much as you can with whomever you can. Do NOT feel bad to lay your woes on others in this time of great need. ALlow others to open their hearts to some of your pain to offer their shoulders for some of your burden. No one can take your physical pain away, oh how I wish we could, but to talk & scream, & complain, & ask WHY?!?!, is an OK thing to do. In the long run the more you lay on the table now the better for you. It is so hard because us mommies want to be strong for our families & not show how much emotional pain we are in. But, it is OK. It will help you grow, heal & accept over time.
    I made the mistake of only showing glimpses of my pain & it ate me up inside.
    You are so blessed but this SUCKS! & you are justified in letting the world know that it does. Your pain & your sorrow for what you are missing are justified sweetie.
    I pray you heal emotionally & physically quickly. I pray you find the courage to face your sorrow. I pray the patience your husband & sons will also need to get through this new journey. I pray your little girls will be in your arms soon.
    God Bless.

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  60. Oh Brittany, my heart aches for you right now. I am obviously praying for you right now, and trying to trust that this is all going to glorify Him in the end AND it the midst of it. But the flesh side of me is REALLY hoping this lady has some GOOD insurance that is ready to pay out the wazoo for your medical bills and pain and suffering! There, I said it, I'm shallow. Have you found a lawyer yet? I don't know what the Ohio laws are, but when I was in an accident and living in Colorado, insurance paid for EVERYTHING. I had a few friends that got in accidents too...we all we to the same chiro, and she would write us perscriptions for the CRAZIEST things that you would NEVER expect, but insurance covered 100% of it! Obviously all the medical bills, but then gym memberships with personal trainer, yoga classes, massages like 3x a week, new mattresses, a cleaning lady for a year...ETC! I think you should have a round-the-clock nurse to help you with your babies and your personal healing, plus a cleaning lady every other day, etc. !! Maybe even a personal chef? Hey, why not?!

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  61. I am so sorry for all the pain you are experiencing. I am feeling it with you as I read. I have been and will continue to be praying for you and a quick recovery.

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  62. Oh Brittany! I had no idea how much pain you were in. That is sooo hard with so many beautiful little ones to love! I am so sorry that you cannot lift your beautiful little girls, and they are so beautiful!
    We will continue to pray,
    Darlene

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  63. So sorry to hear that you are having such extreme pain. You are in my thoughts during this recovery period.

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  64. Tears are falling on my keyboard...I can't say anything that will make the reality of this go away, only that you WILL make it through with God holding your hand and your heart.
    Love you!

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  65. I know we don't know each other but my heart goes out to you. Please, please if you need anything (besides prayer) let me know. Dinner, groceries. I just feel the urge to offer this.God really will prtect you during this time, promise.

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  66. prayers and hugs to you and yours, this too shall pass and you will still have the family that is your heart.

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  67. Brittany-you have an amazing spirit that is contagious! GOD will see you through this and your pain will soon be ridden! Praying for you to heal fast and be able to love on your SIX kiddos soon.
    ~Elyse~

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  68. I am so sorry to hear about what you are going through, Brittany. You are in my thoughts and prayers. I am also praying for those around you to be able to help and comfort you as much as possible. I know this is not what you had in mind, but like you said God was there and protected those precious girls and He will be there for you through all of this. I pray your recovery is quick.

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  69. Praying for you... as are SO MANY MORE. Hang in there!

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  70. Oh Brittany, I feel so much of what your saying right now. I am not going through the same extent of what you are but the pain that I am in is not allowing me to hold my children or move and sleep normally.

    I get so angry that I have waited so long also and now have to be in more pain. But we do have our wonderful babies and this WILL be all over soon. I will be praying for you.

    As for the pumping and dumping after a CT scan. You might want to look into that. My midwife told me that the Dr. don't know this or say this but apparently it is ok to nurse afterwards. I did not ask all the details but though I might pass along the info.

    Praying for eased pain.

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  71. i hope after xrays you can get to a chiro & acupuncturist to get your back on track...i bet once they get their hands on you your body will be able to heal...then you can babywear until your hearts delight. just take it easy though...let the docs handle what they need to and get those ribs, sternum & every other part of your body back to normal. Definitely chiro, acu, & massage...that will surely help...???

    you're in my prayers!!!!

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  72. Dealing with all the physical pain PLUS the hormone issues that come after delivering...I just can NOT imagine. I am so sorry that you are having to endure all of this--I will keep you uplifted constantly in prayer!

    Don't worry about us--you take it easy and enjoy your babies and sweet boys!

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  73. Brittany, I had no idea! I mean, I figured you were possibly in some sort of pain from the accident..but I didn't know the extent of it. I'm so sorry. I'm praying for your river of pain dries up soon.

    Tiff

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  74. We are not at home, so I hadn't checked your blog in awhile- I am so sorry to hear of your accident, but it sounds like everyone is wonderful and healthy and happy! So happy to hear that you and the girls are healthy, and secretly really happy that you are now the mommy of girls too! :) I hope your recovery continues to go well and that your family can relax and enjoy the new additions!

    Congrats again, to you and your hubby and boys! Good job, Mom!

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  75. Brittany;

    Praying for you...

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  76. I'm praying here, too.

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  77. Oh, Brittany. We are praying for you here! We did not know how badly you were hurt. Thank The Lord you and the babies are all alive. Are you even able to nurse? I hope so. Don't worry, it will be alright.
    It will be alright.
    Trust in Paul, he is doing his best and that is enough. Let the Lord handle the rest.
    It will be alright.
    Danielle, Jeff and the boys

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  78. Oh wow. I had no idea that it was that bad. Thanks for sharing with us...I'll just pray that much harder! I wish I lived close to you so I could do something to help!

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  79. Hi Brittany - had to leave a quick comment for you. Danette (www.HAFENZOO.blogspot.com) is my sister and got me hooked on your blog a while ago. I'm mainly just a silent blog stalker but I wanted to let you know that I'm a registered nurse and you most likely don't have to pump and dump if you want to do the CT scan with contrast. I don't know the exact details of what you need to be done but I would highly reccomend calling the La Leche League and asking them. I know the lady I used to see here in Vegas has all the up to date info on drugs and their interactions with breastfeeding. I've reffered a lot of women to call her. And there really is only a few few things you have to pump and dump for. Most people don't really know if things are safe or not with breastfeeding so they just tell you to dump (so wrong!!). But I know it's like liquid gold so don't do it if you don't have too!! Let me know if you need the contact information! I really think you can do it without any problems and I know the lactation lady I know would be happy to look anything up for you (contrast, pain meds, antibiotics, anything!). Hope you heal fast!
    - Carolyn

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  80. PS YEEEEAAAAA GIRLS!!
    k i'm done. :)

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  81. praying God's love and peace is felt by you and yours right now!

    congrats on your girls....


    YYYYYYYYYeahhhh

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  82. praying for you and miraculous healing............

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  83. im praying for you
    you will get better and will be able to held those delicious kids of yours

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  84. i hope that the days get better very soon... my heart breaks for you and all you have been thru... all the best

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  85. I will pray for your recovery! I can't stop thinking of how thankful you must be that your boys were not with you and that your girls are just perfect!!!

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  86. I pray you heal fast and get to hold your beautiful babies (all of them!) really soon...

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  87. Brittany, I am so sorry to hear that you are in so much pain. I will be praying that you have a speedy recovery.

    Your girls are ADORABLE and truely miracles.

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  88. Continued prayers for a speedy recovery. I can only imagine how hard (and tiring) it must be for you right now. I will continue to pray for you and your family!

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  89. Goodness, Brittany...It is not fair when I try to fathom all you are going through, but you are most certainly in my thoughts, my prayers, and in my heart.

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  90. I'm also posting the first time and have been enjoying your blog.I'm pregnant with twins now,

    Congrats on your beautiful girls!!! what miracles!!!

    My sister recently gave birth at 38 wks also due to a car accident
    Brittany its a hard road I know. but you get out of it and always feel so blessed to be able to give love and be here for your beautiful family

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  91. I'm also posting the first time and have been enjoying your blog.I'm pregnant with twins now,

    Congrats on your beautiful girls!!! what miracles!!!

    My sister recently gave birth at 38 wks also due to a car accident
    Brittany its a hard road I know. but you get out of it and always feel so blessed to be able to give love and be here for your beautiful family

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  92. I am so sorry you are in so much physical pain and that your heart is hurting too. It won't be a moment too soon, but the time will come that you will be carrying your baby girls and embracing your special boys. You have every right to be frustrated and angry, and God will guide you through those feelings. I'm so glad the girls are okay though, so you don't have that weighing on you also. I will be praying for comfort and healing for you, strength for your husband, understanding for your boys, and for the Lord to guide the doctors who help you.

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  93. Brittany...that brought tears to my eyes because I understand the emotion that comes with your feelings of wanting to pick up your kids and hug them. Many prayers are going out for you and your family. If there is any small thing that I can do for you, please let me know.

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  94. I just wanted to stop and say a prayer for you.

    I just had twin boys back in mid June after 13 weeks of bedrest (mostly in hospital) due to TTTS. My boys survived but still we did NICU time. On top of that, I was atrophied from bedrest and had to have blood transfusions after some complications. I also had a robbed feeling and was frustrated. . . my older three kids at home had been w/out me for months. It was not easy.

    We are still slow. But it does get better. Just takes time. . . Accept any and all help. Your kids will be amazingly resilient. Some stuff (like 2 babies crying at once, haha) will not even phase them but will drive us big folks bonkers!

    Prayers. . .

    Emily in NC

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  95. I was thinking about you this morning and here is a thought I had....your pain..is what protected your sweet baby girls from harm. What a wonderful mommy you are!:)

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  96. I'm so sorry to read that you are in so much pain. =( I hope that by some miracle you pain will subside so that you can give all the snuggles you want to all of your 6 beautiful children. Many prayers flowing your way.

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  97. Wow... I am amazed that with all your pain, you were still able to have a vaginal birth. It's utterly amazing to me, and it's obvious that God is holding you and helping you through this. Thanks for updating us in spite of your pain, so we can better know how to pray for you. I hope when you get the results back, the damage is less than expected and that the road to a full recovery will speed up and you'll have this tribulation behind you so you can fully enjoy your beautiful girls.

    Take care.

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  98. Brittany, I'm so sorry for all the pain and suffering you are going through. I'm praying for your body to heal quickly so you can get on with the business of being mom, the way you want to, to your precious six.

    I can't even imagine the pain of all your injuries on top of the physical mending your body is doing after having the babies. Nevermind all the nursing that's going on right now. Two hungry mouths to feed when your whole body is hurting so... you're my hero. And this will pass. You WILL heal! Know that you have a lot of people lifting you up in prayer to the God who has had His hand on you and your precious baby girls the whole time.

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  99. This will all be a bad memory and one you will have trouble even remembering because all you can really think about is those lovely twin girls :)

    HUGS!! And lots of prayers!

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  100. i've been a reader for awhile now-but have never left a comment. i love your blog and i'm praying for you!

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  101. I hope you slowly starting to feel better and have had some good cuddle time with your babies (all six). All the best

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  102. I'm praying for complete and quick healing for you, and praising God that those babies are just fine! Your body did a glorious thing on the day of the accident (and the previous 8 months or so)...it protected your precious girls.

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  103. I'm so sorry that you hurt so much. Your family is so blessed. Praying that you recover to your strong self!

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Brittany